Kacie McIntosh, who was in season 9 of Love Is Blind, has finally talked about her public breakup with Patrick Suzuki. She told Entertainm...
Kacie McIntosh, who was in season 9 of Love Is Blind, has finally talked about her public breakup with Patrick Suzuki. She told Entertainment Weekly that she didn't mean for it to be a split at all.
Kacie didn't want to go to Mexico with Patrick after getting engaged in the pods and having an awkward reveal in real life. What happened next in episode 6 was not clear. Kacie told Patrick she didn't want to keep watching the TV show. He thought they were going to keep dating off the show because she kept kissing and caringssing him and even straddling him to make out at one point while she was crying. But Kacie told the producers on camera that she knew she wouldn't "grow" attracted to him.
And now Kacie tells EW that she didn't quit the show because of how Patrick looked, and she also wanted to keep dating when they got back to Denver.
"No, I did not end things with Patrick over his appearance," Kacie points out. To find out if love really was blind, I did this. Even though I had already met him and everything, I didn't want to go through with it because I wear my heart on my sleeve and wasn't sure if the desire could grow. I wanted to take the showy part out of our relationship. I wanted to go back to Denver, meet up with him, and talk about how we could date slowly when we got there.
She says that she wasn't really breaking up with Patrick that night in the hotel. She even says she "hoped" they could "start dating" when they both got back to Denver.
"We do have a lot in common, a lot of activities and stuff," she adds. "I always told them, 'I'm up for a chat or a hangout. Let's see where this goes.'" I didn't say, "I'll never see you again." "That's all of it.
But she knows why people think she was trying to break up with Patrick when they talked in the hotel. "That moment is so interesting because I am going through a million things through my head," she adds. "I understand; no one can catch up with how I feel." At times I say one thing and at times I feel another. At first, I thought, "I'm not sure if the attraction can grow or if I should go ahead with this." And then he got to the hotel, which made me feel really relieved.
Kacie says that when Patrick showed up at the hotel, she felt "really comfortable" with him. This made her start to question her choice not to go to Mexico with him. She also thinks that's why it seems like she sent him mixed messages. "That's something I'm just going to own up to here," she says. "In my head, I was very emotional and, I will stand by this, I was very confused when I was talking to the producers and then doing the actual TV work." When I met him for the first time, I felt like I didn't really connect with him--like this is a stranger--so I went back to my hotel and crashed pretty hard.
When she realised this, she chose to talk to the producers and then Patrick about leaving the show. She does admit, though, that she wasn't completely honest with Patrick about how she didn't feel about him when they talked. "I was confused and I did say all those things, and I feel really horrible because I did not confess that to him in the moment," she says. "I'm touching him, showering him with love, and telling him I love him because when he showed up, I felt at ease in his arms." Am I really going wrong here?' I've sat on that every night for the past year and a half. Did I really mess up? Should I have gone with him to Baja?" But Kacie also goes by what she told the producers at the start: that she knew she wouldn't fall in love with Patrick and that it wouldn't be fair to him to keep their engagement going on the trip to Mexico.
"Prior to him being there, I did say those things, because I know me, and I just know attraction can only grow so much," she adds. "That's just nice of me." I did not want to make things worse or fake my feelings or anything else. He was already feeling a certain way.
After watching the first six episodes and seeing Patrick fall in love with Anna Yuan first, she doesn't feel bad about her choice. Anna left the show without saying goodbye to Patrick, which is when he turned his attention to his relationship with Kacie. "I am glad I left, because I did not know he had this other connection and this other love story that looks pretty great to me," she says. "They look like they could have gotten along. So something in my body told me to leave, and now that things are looking like they did, I'm glad I did. Because even though I loved and care about him, I feel like I was the second choice. That's why I was there.
Still, Kacie wants people to understand that the situation is "very complicated" and not as simple as some might think.
"I'll never be able to really explain," she adds. "I know everyone is telling you, 'You said this, you did that.'" Yes, I did. It's kind of like dating someone on an app and then meeting them in person and being like, "I don't know." That's when I knew we couldn't go on the honeymoon because my thoughts were so all over the place. It's been "a lot" for Kacie since the season premiered last week. She even shared a screenshot of some of the mean things people have said about her on social media.
She says, "But I signed up for it." Kacie says that when she said that the show was "heavily edited," she meant that viewers didn't get to see her full love for Patrick in the episodes.
"My experience on the show was great, and I know it's a TV show and they have to edit it," she adds. "But when I saw that, I thought, 'That's not at all like me or my personality.'" You can only put so much in, but this wasn't my love story, and I would have loved to see more of us fall in love.
The first seven episodes of Love Is Blind season 9 come out on October 8. The next eleven episodes come out on October 15, and the end airs on October 22.